Hello lovely friends and family..
Just thought I’d send a little mini update and a little photo of me and Ruthie Feather. Me with my beanie clad bald head a grateful heart and my lovely grand baby.
Would I rather NOT be walking through this? Absolutely, however what I am learning is that God is close to the brokenhearted in ways I only dreamed of and this brings me ENDLESS HOPE.
Today is treatment number FOUR!! And I can see the end of chemo from the top of this mountain. It is indeed a mountain and my heart goes out to all living this out like I am. Even though I am NO expert in all of this, I have a few of my little tips I am using for walking through.
THE WORD. This has been my top priority. I have a folder of daily scriptures to read over myself which my darling friend Miriam Webster made up for me. These scriptures lead me to continued HOPE and TRUST. Declaring scripture and reading it loud when my heart trembles or my emotions go AWOL. Through this treatment I have been super tired.. SO, reading out loud has been awesome.
I have sent to my phone every a subscription daily bible stucy from Joyce Meyer, Nicky Gumbal, and Ps Joseph Prince. These are like heaven to me and I look forward to waking up everyday to these promises. Again, they lead me to the Word, which leads me to my own other studies. Heb 12:4 from the Message translation ‘God means what He says, what He says goes. His powerful word is sharp as a surgeons scalpel,cutting through everything whether doubt or defense, laying us open to listen and obey. Nothing and no one is impervious to Gods word. We can’t get away from it, no matter what.’ LOVE this xx my hope.
PRAYING FRIENDS AND FAMILY. ALL I can say is THANKYOU. There are times that I literally FEEL the prayers of the saints close and afar carrying me. And when I have been unable to utter a prayer. I know someone is praying. You have no idea the comfort this brings. When I am able, rest assured I pray for all of you. My hubby is my rock, my girls are fiercely loyal and covered by many prayers and supported by friends.. my heart is SO thankful.
WORSHIP. The word is clear about bringing our prayers, our worship, our songs, before, during and after any storms that may come our way. So I sit at my piano when I can and simply love Jesus. I open the Psalms and let my heart come out. I play worship songs, many instrumentals or free worship moments I find on live albums by many of my faves.
This morning, Ps Joseph Prince was singing the whole song of ‘turn your eyes upon Jesus’ and I was moved to tears. My soul sang along as I prepared to go to church. It amazes me what God will use if you allow Him access to your heart.
GREAT FOOD. Ok, this has been trial and error for me. AT first, I went FULLY raw food… juicing like a mad woman (which I still do a lot of) but with my type of chemo I have learned I must have my food cooked to keep germs at bay (white blood cell count alert!.. ended up in hospital a few times.. not intending to go again).
SO, lots of soups which are nutricious, tasty, wild salmon, and steamed broccoli with every meal.. basically, whatever I feel like, if it is good for me and I simply eat it when I feel like eating. Mark reckons I’ve turned into a random foodie. AS your taste buds die off, its hard to always know, but doing my best thanks to family and friends cooking like champions for me AND my family.
EXERCISE. All my training, beach runs, lifting weights. I have not been able to manage. BUT, I am walking whenever I can. Out in the sunshine, sometimes just to the end of the street but sometimes a longer way. The sunshine is a great place to find yourself thanking God for every day, and the walking is a great way to keep your system feeling at its best despite everything.
LAUGHTER. Just making sure your friends feel ok to pop in, send you silly videos, sit and chat and laugh and cry.. its SO good for the soul. This is such an intense time, and doctors appointments can be very confronting, a merry soul definitely does good like a medicine. Thank You Proverbs 17:22!!
JUST DO WHAT YOU CAN. I have been busy in the home when I can, writing songs, playing with my grand-babies and cooking, all simply when I can.
Don’t push yourself just be kind to yourself.
AND LASTLY.. A GOOD JOURNAL. Writing down my thoughts which I will gather later. Writing down the God whispers and even the days of silence. Writing down how my body feels on certain days so I am more prepared next treatment. Writing down scriptures that those I trust to speak into my situation have felt to share with me. This book brings me comfort and is helping my emotions to have an outlet.. also gives me somewhere to place random song lyrics, random thoughts, random ramblings and so on…
Anyways, theres a few little tips for you if you need them..…
I am also gathering a great collection of head gear and wraps to make me feel good while I look, well a little interesting!! Glad its becoming winter in Oz!!
Thank You again everyone. I’ll be laying low this week, but my heart is good, God is faithful and I see the horizon and it looks GOOD!!!
Much much love xx D